Jude I’m in a hole and I wish it was me instead of you. I don’t give a shit how pretentious or insensitive this sounds life is largely meaningless and we are a blip in the expanse of time but we (I) have people around me that we (I) have a responsibility to be there for. I wish I could say something more positive but my head is so full of darkness and infinite webs of emotions, conscious and subconscious.I love you and god (if there is one) knows that Claudia and Lawrence are the reason I wake up every day and make sure I’m there for my parents.